My battle with my mental health had lasted for as long as I could remember and I came close to losing it on a few occasions. I was told that full recovery from my conditions was impossible and instead, I’d learn to live with them. I wasn’t convinced that this was true. ‘Grow’ was written after I left one of my final therapy sessions, in which I felt a sudden euphoria. I told my counsellor it was like I was finally seeing everything in HD. This song is a celebration of that exact moment and the tenacity it took to get there.
lyrics
The clouds have moved and the sunlight's creeping in, this time.
My eyes are open and I'm seeing everything, this time.
The clarity was unbearable but a light I could not ignore
It pulls me in away from the past at such an awesome force
It's over now, I can see the sun and I won't shut my eyes
I'm reaching out, taking control, I've never felt so alive
I've awakened, self-restoration, I am my own salvation and without you, I WILL GROW
For far too long I buried and hid myself
(but it doesn't get better, you do)
Needed permission to prioritise my health
(because I always chose you)
It's so hard to open up your heart when you're scared of the dark
But I couldn't grow without you and the fire was mine to start
We're living in a time where happiness isn't even guaranteed
But I'm living-proof that one day your mind can be set free
I've awakened, self-restoration, I am my own salvation and without you, I WILL GROW
Thicker skin, won't let you in, time to begin.
Sink or swim, comes from within, time to begin.
credits
released August 28, 2019
Released via Leisure Records
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